Not Awake

I keep dreaming of you.
I always hope its real but its never true.
In every nightmare you die another way.
Why can't it fade away?

You fall down the stairs,
And I'm frozen there.
Unable to speak, unable to save you.
Feels like there was nothing I ever gave you.

And every night,
You die a thousand times.
And I'm left drowning in your blood.
Can't save you with my love.

I see your eyes glaze,
And your life fade.
I can never wake.
I'm held captive as death takes,
Your heart beat.
I can't even speak!

I miss you, can you hear me scream?!?
I need you, why is this always a dream?
Why did I,
Live and you die?
I want to bring you back but I know its too late.
I see you smile, but I know I'm not awake.

Each day goes by and I miss you more.
Never feels like I'll be the way I was before.
I miss talking to you and laughing at the things you'd say.
Why couldn't it have been me that death chose to take?
I wish I was the one he stole.
Now that you're gone I'll never be whole.

And every night,
You die a thousand times.
And I'm left drowning in your blood.
Can't save you with my love.

I see your eyes glaze,
And your life fade.
I can never wake.
I'm held captive as death takes,
Your heart beat.
I can't even speak!

I miss you, can you hear me scream?!?
I need you, why is this always a dream?
Why did I,
Live and you die?
I want to bring you back but I know its too late.
I see you smile, but I know I'm not awake.

Your head falls back and your light goes out.
Every time I relive it I can't even shout.
I wonder, was there something I should have done?
Why did you have to be the one?

And now I'm left,
Broken and adrift.
Screaming your name
Into the howling wind and rain.


And every night,
You die a thousand times.
And I'm left drowning in your blood.
Can't save you with my love.

I see your eyes glaze,
And your life fade.
I can never wake.
I'm held captive as death takes,
Your heart beat.
I can't even speak!

I miss you, can you hear me scream?!?
I need you, why is this always a dream?
Why did I,
Live and you die?
I want to bring you back but I know its too late.
I see you smile, but I know I'm not awake.

I'm standing her on the edge.
Arms spread on the highest ledge.
The winds strong up here.
Will I choose to disappear?
I look down,
At the concrete ground.

I miss you, I need you.
Can't stay together, I'm coming unglued.
Can you forgive me,
If I go on living?

I'm sorry that I'm alive and you're not.
You're final breath cannot,
Ever be erased.
I see your face.
But I know, I'm not awake.