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Blackened SkiesShe looks in the mirror but nothing's there.
Brushes the hair from her face,
And can't find the will to care.
That all her dreams have been erased.

Imitated those she believed were spotless.
Crushed the stars to steal their light.
Walked so long through the darkness,
That she didn't see herself start to unwind.

She blows kisses to blackened skies.
And watches poisoned rain fall like pattering feet.
Smiles at the gouges carved in her mind,
Wondering of they make her complete.

How long has she wandered,
Without a course or guide?
For how many years has she pondered,
And not yet found a pattern to life.

Imitated those she believe
Hidden UndergroundThis is the first time you haven't been able to,
Use that fake smile that I can see through.
I know something happened years ago.
Why are you so afraid to let anyone know?
What was done is not your fault.
Hiding the pain won't make it halt.

You hide from the sun but fear the dark
Bury the tears and store them in your heart.
Blame yourself as if you chose this.
Why do you put scars on your wrist?

You're not the one who broke your soul and mind.
Don't deny because I see it in all the lines,
That leave marks on your cheeks and lead down, 
To all the dark secrets you've hidden underground.

For so long you've told yourself,
It
In Your EyesI can see it in his face, he's already decided,
That he isn't good enough.
Dropped his gaze in shame as our souls collided.
Unaware he already has all my love.

What killed his dreams,
And created the fear in his eyes?
Who made him bleed,
And so deeply scarred his mind?

Don't you know I see your worth?
You're not the things they said.
The hopes long buried can be unearthed. 
You aren't the memories trapped inside your head.

Look into the image I see.
You're so much more than,
A broken spirit or worthless debris.
Perhaps you've given up but I can't.

What killed his dreams,
And created the fear in his eyes?
Who made him bl
Will ForeverSometimes it's so hard,
As the world crashes all around,
When someone you loves been torn apart,
And you can't seem to make a sound.
But these things I speak now are from my heart.

I can't swear to always have the right words to say.
Sometimes I might feel helpless and frozen.
And I won't always be able to take your pain away.
I might not have the cure to a soul ripped open.

But I promise you,
I'll be there when the sky has faded from blue.
When you're crying and there aren't any easy words,
I'll hold you tight and try to ease the hurt.

I'm not perfect, and may not always do the right thing.
But if you fall down I'll try to be y
Drain the SkyI look at you, so pale and still.
Beautiful and cold, lost to Winters deep chill.
How did you come to be this way?
Why did you think darkness was your escape?

If it would bring color back to your eyes,
I'd reach up and drain the sky.
And if I could chase away the fear that lives inside your head,
I'd tie your chains around my neck.

I'd travel into the shadowed realm of your mind,
And to free you I'd give up my life.
But if you don't reach for me I can't cut this binding crown.
Look up and see that the suns still shining down.

Long ago I know your light,
Was alive and burning bright.
What was it that made you change,
And retreat
Chains DisguisedWith unseeing eyes I stare,
At the letter which I've written.
But somehow it seems too much for them to bear.
And I already know it won't be given.

Because sometimes a beautiful fantasy,
That is actually chains disguised,
Is too accepted to be,
Torn from unsuspecting minds.

I harm myself,
So I won't hurt anyone else.
Why burden them with my sorrow?
What good will it do if they know?

But a part of me,
Longs to not live inside this mystery.
But veiled caution, my dearest friend,
Says it safer not to let the lying end.

If the darkness lifts,
And they see my cobwebbed skeletons,
Will their love for me shift,
Will our relationsh
Dust and ShadowsI'm sorry I disappointed you once more,
Like I have so many times before.
You paint a pretty image and I attempt,
To fit in and finally connect,
With you like I've never been able to.
But each time it doesn't come true.

Why is it that you can't accept me?
Must you turn away and reject me?
I've given up myself and poured it at your feet.
Because one smile from you would make my heart beat.

But the total sacrifice,
Will not suffice.
I am nothing but dust and shadows.
The child you've never known.

I dance to the rhythm you create.
Even when it makes my soul break.
Perhaps though this isn't the path I should take.
Because with ea
All My HeartWish I could have you in a picture frame on my wall.
I'd hang you on a hook so you'd never fall.
But somehow people can't be put in a glass case.
They don't want to stay there even if its to keep them safe.

What's scary is the ones you care about,
Want to leave and find their own way around.
You want to hold them tight and not let go.
But they break free even though,

You try so hard to keep them close.
Its frightening releasing what you love the most.
So I'll try to live through these sleepless nights.
Praying with braided fingers that you'll be alright.

And I will keep trusting that,
One day you'll come back,
To my open ar
Through Dark Waters, Chapter IIChapter II: Shreds of Love

The first sound that reached Annie's ears was folds of cloth rubbing against each other. She lay in confusion for a moment, not sure whether to be curious or afraid of the strange noise. Thoughts bounced around her head as she attempted to remember what in the world had happened. Why was she drenched in sweat and laying on her bed with so much physical pain? Had the beating been particularly bad? She'd have to call in and opt out of school if that was the case. Her mother always made her do that when the bruises and cuts were too obvious. That would mean even more piled up assignments.

Then in a blinding flash las
Just a MemoryMy resolve melts like wax,
And drips down to burn my skin.
The pain within me continues to twist and wrack.
For the thousandth time here I am again.

How did it start, when did I decide,
That these images screaming inside of my mind,
Were the things that would heal me if I just opened myself?
Now this compulsion is destroying me when I thought it would help.

Beauty is fleeting, or so I once believed.
But now the mirror gives greeting to how I've been deceived.
And locked in my memory lives the worst part.
Its that I'm the one who gave this desire my heart!

This force tells me to do things that people say,
Will send me to an early
Every WordYou laugh and take my hand.
We splash in the waves and run through sand.
I'm smiling and your grin is like a star shining.
So warm and strong like this love's deep binding.
And even though these are just memories,
It feels like you're here with me.

I listen to your favorite songs,
And I almost hear you hum along.
I can feel your fingers brushing my face.
And I know we'll meet again someday.

Big brother I miss the board games we'd play.
The movies we'd watch and the things you'd say.
Until the day I see your face I'll remember your every word.
And even though its painful I know it won't always hurt.

That year was a hard one for u
Bring to LifeOne's scars are not simply disfigurements,
They tell a vivid story written in blood and skin.
Why do people's icy stares never relent,
When this is pain they've never been in?

I know hope is there.
Because its the only reason why,
I held on when no one cared,
And didn't give up inside.

I want to break the surface,
Of the sorrow's hold.
I believe each life has a purpose.
So bring to life my soul.

I don't want to die,
That wasn't the reason this began.
All I desire is to survive,
And get out of this dark land.

I know hope is there.
Because its the only reason why,
I held on when no one cared,
And didn't give up inside.

I wan
Red TideSpin around like you're insane.
Laugh when you'd rather scream.
Open your arms to liberate the pain.
Escape inside your dreams.

Grin when the hate is eating you away.
The cancer digs farther than they see.
Look to the side in self loathing and rage.
This is the shell you don't want to be.

The red tide is rising higher.
Feel the hunger burn.
Your mind's on fire.
In the night you toss and turn.

The sweet abyss calls for you.
Like a siren its voice is so sweet.
Feel it smother you in its hues.
You long for the release.

The red tide is drowning you deep.
Your thoughts shudder with desire.
It haunts your troubled sleep.
Your min
Greatest EnemyHave you ever yelled at yourself in the silver glass?
Did you ever wish this moment was your very last?
My smile is so deceptive.
Laugh when I don't want to live.

Can't deal with it.
Feels like I'm just an idiot.
Seems like my greatest enemy,
Happens to be me.

I hate myself.
Wish I was someone else.
I loathe living inside this skin.
Can't escape the trap I fell in.

The darkness cloys at my throat.
As my dreams become remote.
Sometimes all I can do is cry.
How did my world go awry? 

Can't deal with it.
Feels like I'm just an idiot.
Seems like my greatest enemy,
Happens to be me.

I hate myself.
Wish I was someone else.
Darkest MiddayRadiance extends her hands to me,
But I recoil in terror barely able to breathe.
The poison screams inside as the truth unfolds,
For an escape from this threat to its control.

From my willing enslavement this realization has made me stray.
Every excuse I possessed has been stripped away.
All the shrouds in which I wrapped my soul,
Now have been torn to leave me bare and cold.

I cover my eyes as the light descends.
The blackness inside doesn't want this to end.
Who was I before I threw my life at its feet?
Can I even remember my own heart beat?
I can't recall the last time I truly lived.
What is it that I chose to give?

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Why do you still look out with a smiling face?

Do you not sense the darkness that is so deep,
And all the heartbreak we reap?

Are your eyes blind to the suffering that we inflict,
All the cruel acts that are so sick.

You beautiful fool, your joy infuriates,
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Pure, deep and true.

The warm summer sky,

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The sea deep and old as time.

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In the artists brush that sings.

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Don't glimpse the warmth of a spring shower.

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I finished writing this a few minutes ago. It was inspired by one word: Skyscrapers. What do you think of it?
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~notchthegreat Apr 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I think I'll do this for your present. Make a Gmod representation for it.
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*Retrubutionist777 May 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Really? Thank you! I'd love that:)
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*sApPH1repo3t Feb 10, 2013
This is an amazing poem, I enjoyed the imagery and the flow of this poem! :)
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*Retrubutionist777 May 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you! I'm very grateful you did. So it created a vivid story in your mind?
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Mood: Astonished *Elixa-Carr Jan 22, 2013  Student Writer
I think it's amazing & it's made me feel nauseous. Wow. You can take anything metaphorical & make us believe you've experienced it literally, exactly as you've told it. I don't need to talk you up; you handle that for me.
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*Retrubutionist777 Feb 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That is amazing! o.o And....I do? Gack! *nearly faints*
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Mood: Love *Elixa-Carr Feb 8, 2013  Student Writer
:) All true. :tighthug:
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~notchthegreat Jan 12, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I imagine so many slow motion sequences with this one.
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*Retrubutionist777 Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Ooooh you can?
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~notchthegreat Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
A lot of them are the lateral slo-mo falling with the shards of glass. Or maybe the over the top sky to ground falling thing.
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